[The memory stops them dead. Stops their heart dead.
For a moment they are back in that dark room, still bound to a chair. Still listening to others talk over their own screams because there wasn't a need to ask them anything until there was. Escaped one to many times. Pinpoints of pain, the sound of metal being heated, privileges being revoked. No food, no water, no sleep. Blades scraping against the flesh of their wings and eventually bone.
(You want to die so badly.)
Their throat aches and for a moment they are Adriel again.
Nekane doesn't know what to do. These are not their own memories. But these are horrors that they know far too well. It makes them sick.
They don't yet realize it but they've sat down on the floor, a hand digging into the front of their shirt. A loud wheeze escapes them as they try to remember what a kid showed them about breathing. But it's...not working.
I'm not there. they try to tell themself. I'm not fucking there anymore, stop thinking about it. Just breathe. Just shut up!
Their panic climbs regardless of their efforts and if they are no longer alone, it's not something Nekane realizes.]
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For a moment they are back in that dark room, still bound to a chair. Still listening to others talk over their own screams because there wasn't a need to ask them anything until there was. Escaped one to many times. Pinpoints of pain, the sound of metal being heated, privileges being revoked. No food, no water, no sleep. Blades scraping against the flesh of their wings and eventually bone.
(You want to die so badly.)
Their throat aches and for a moment they are Adriel again.
Nekane doesn't know what to do. These are not their own memories. But these are horrors that they know far too well. It makes them sick.
They don't yet realize it but they've sat down on the floor, a hand digging into the front of their shirt. A loud wheeze escapes them as they try to remember what a kid showed them about breathing. But it's...not working.
I'm not there. they try to tell themself. I'm not fucking there anymore, stop thinking about it. Just breathe. Just shut up!
Their panic climbs regardless of their efforts and if they are no longer alone, it's not something Nekane realizes.]